Not attracted to my boyfriend anymore?

I know this is shallow of me, and before you blast me I hate me too. We’ve been together over a year and a half now. When I first met him, I didn’t get the butterflies, he’s not the most handsome man. But I fell in love with him because he’s nothing like other guys. He’s gentle, warm and so so kind to me it’s... show more I know this is shallow of me, and before you blast me I hate me too.
We’ve been together over a year and a half now. When I first met him, I didn’t get the butterflies, he’s not the most handsome man. But I fell in love with him because he’s nothing like other guys. He’s gentle, warm and so so kind to me it’s amazing. He’s a beautiful soul and I love him.
I pushed flaws to the side because they didn’t matter to me (mostly). But now I just feel repulsed.
All I see is how overweight and hairy he is. I have really gotten into fitness, but he hasn’t even when I try to suggest exercise like a walk on a weekend. He either eats takeaway everyday or he eats an apple with oxyshred (fat burner) and that’s it. I am putting so much effort into my appearance, eat healthy to look good. He won’t go to the gym because he has no time - works as a forklift driver from 8-7pm.
The thought of sex has me hurling and cringing. He’s a bit smelly because he’s overweight and no amount of showering keeps down there smelling fresh for too long. It also has a horrible taste (unsure if this is because he’s uncircumcised - SORRY TMI) and he just has a large round hairy belly (I mean you can’t see skin).
Please help, I love him I truely do but I’m just not physically attracted anymore and I don’t know what to do. Any advice is much appreciated. Thank you
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