Have you tried prayer? God will answer the humble prayers of His children. If you need God's help, understand that God is a great helper of those who are His. Anyone who desires reconciliation with the Lord, need only call upon the name of Jesus, in truth and in sincerity with a humble heart, asking Him for forgiveness of their sins, and the free gift of His Holy Spirit to dwell in them, forever - connecting them to the Lord for all eternity. When God forgives your sins, they are forgiven once and for all, and He remembers them no more. So there is no need to stand in shame before Him, when your sins are covered. Jesus gave His Life as a sacrifice so that we could be presented righteous before the Lord. This righteousness is not based on anything that we have done, but on everything that Jesus has accomplished on our behalf.