What do I do when I'm scared to have surgery?

I literally feel that I wont wake up from the anesthetic. I have chiari malformation 1 which is when the bottom of the brain hangs through my skull into the spinal cord causing spinal fluid to build up and not get to the left half of my body. I've been having really bad panic attacks countless times each day. I... show more I literally feel that I wont wake up from the anesthetic. I have chiari malformation 1 which is when the bottom of the brain hangs through my skull into the spinal cord causing spinal fluid to build up and not get to the left half of my body. I've been having really bad panic attacks countless times each day. I know my body, and I KNOW that I will not make it through the surgery!!! The problem is, if I dont get this fixed, it will someday cripple me and probably kill me. So I feel like I have no choice but to try the surgery but omg I cant think right. I think I'm going to die!!!
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