I’m not sexually attracted to my boyfriend anymore?

I feel shitty saying this, but I know I could be having wayyyy better sex with someone else. Our sex used to be really good until he stopped putting in work. He always wants me on top now and I hate it, partially because I feel like it should be equal, and more so because I’ve had bad joints since I was young (I... show more I feel shitty saying this, but I know I could be having wayyyy better sex with someone else. Our sex used to be really good until he stopped putting in work. He always wants me on top now and I hate it, partially because I feel like it should be equal, and more so because I’ve had bad joints since I was young (I guess from sports?). I’m capable of putting up with it but it gets annoying after doing it every single time we have sex for months now. He can’t give good head, and he barely fingers me. The worst part is that I’ve talked to him about this. And he doesn’t want to change anything. I think he likes when I take over. But I want someone to satisfy me. He’s also really into me sending nudes and stuff but I’ve told him so many times that i don’t. Basically he just takes and doesn’t give. It turns me off. Halfway through sex I’m already wishing I never started and I haven’t came in months while having sex with him. I fake it. The only reason we have sex anyway is because I don’t want to disappoint him and there’s always a slight hope that something will be different but I’m really on the verge of just saying no until he changes. What do I do?
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