God will give you many second chances, up until you die, to reconnect with Him and accept His free offer of rescue (salvation). There is enough evidence in nature and history of God's existence and intervention in human lives. And enough opportunities to doubt and disbelieve. History holds the record of fulfilled prophecies that are in the Bible. And Satan wants you to believe that God is like him (Satan) and that Satan is just misunderstood and got a bad rap. The Catholic church discovered that they could control the masses through fear, and thus have made up stories about God being vindictive and arbitrary, stories about an eternally burning place of torment for unbelievers and the unsaved and the wicked. That is not what the Bible says happens to a person when they die. The wicked will be burned up, alright, but not in a place of unending torment. How long do you think it would take for a person to burn up in a volcano? But you must also ask yourself, what do you have to lose for believing? Or not believing? It is appointed for a man to die once, and then the judgment. Whether you want to believe in God or not, does not make Him cease to exist, and you not be accountable for the evil you do. Many people abandon Christianity for awhile, then realize that nothing else makes more sense, and return. If you have a connection with God, you hear that still small voice behind you saying which way to walk, what is best, what not to do. Listen for it.