I’m 21 and can’t cope with my husbands death. Suicide is looking like a real possibility?
I still text his phone, call him, and talk to him as if he is there. Even taking about him in past tense stings my heart.
I find that it’s hard to find anything worth living for. I have never thought about suicide but To me suicide is the only logical answer now...because I can’t live a life like this. It’s agony everyday, with no relief. I drink almost everyday and have been hooking up with random guys which is disgusting and embarrassing but honestly I just like having someone to sleep next too. What makes it even worse is all of it just makes me feel worse. My husband would be ashamed.