My mother doesn't want me and nothing i do pleases her, is there anyway to fix our relationship?

I'm not entirely sure when exactly this whole mess started. Maybe it was when I hit my teens, maybe it was always there. My mother keeps getting worked up over the dumbest things. She talks **** about me behind my back to friends and family. She says that I'm supposed to act like a young lady and look after... show more I'm not entirely sure when exactly this whole mess started. Maybe it was when I hit my teens, maybe it was always there. My mother keeps getting worked up over the dumbest things. She talks **** about me behind my back to friends and family. She says that I'm supposed to act like a young lady and look after the house. And I try, sure, I can probably try a bit harder, but I vacuum and dust and do the dishes and look after my sister since both of our parents are at work all day long. My mom uses her work as an excuse to not have to spend time with us since we keep giving her headaches, her words, not mine. She works in retail, and spends all the money that she makes on clothes and knick knacks, while telling others that she works hard to raise money for our family, even though she doesn't contribute to the bills- not even for her own car. When she gets home she's always on her phone, whether it's facebook, gossiping with friends or family, or online shopping. Only on rare occasions does she ever spend time with us without her phone.
Update: She always complains to me about her relationship with my dad and there's no romance between them, along with other stuff I'd rather not hear. She keeps saying that since I'm 18 now, I can hear this stuff. That she sees me as her friend, someone to confide in. She keeps picking fights with me, and... show more She always complains to me about her relationship with my dad and there's no romance between them, along with other stuff I'd rather not hear. She keeps saying that since I'm 18 now, I can hear this stuff. That she sees me as her friend, someone to confide in. She keeps picking fights with me, and claims to be supportive of me (especially in front of others-my friends love her) but in reality I get little to no support for her.
Update 2: she's also under the impression that if she buys us nice things we don't need or even ask for, then it's our fault. she throws it back in my face, along with the fact that she had a hard time with my birth. she freaked out when i told her i wanted to do a gap semester this fall because i don't feel... show more she's also under the impression that if she buys us nice things we don't need or even ask for, then it's our fault. she throws it back in my face, along with the fact that she had a hard time with my birth. she freaked out when i told her i wanted to do a gap semester this fall because i don't feel mentally ready for college and do online classes, saying i'm a failure and disappointment. so i did what she wanted, and i started college today. still not enough.
Update 3: she says awful, hurtful things when we fight, and more than once she has claimed that i'm her enemy a spawn of satan, and/or pure evil. then when we make up she tells me to stop making her say those things because she loves me.she's also "disowned" me on many times, including today,saying that... show more she says awful, hurtful things when we fight, and more than once she has claimed that i'm her enemy a spawn of satan, and/or pure evil. then when we make up she tells me to stop making her say those things because she loves me.she's also "disowned" me on many times, including today,saying that unless i change my attitude i need to leave. one second she's nice and awesome,the next she's screaming profanities and how if it weren't for me she'd still be in home country with her friends and family.
Update 4: despite doing my best to please her, she still tells me she wants me to leave. i've started having nightmares about her. i can't leave, though, because i don't trust her with my sister. there are times where she would forget to feed my sister because she's glued to her phone. i've been taking... show more despite doing my best to please her, she still tells me she wants me to leave. i've started having nightmares about her. i can't leave, though, because i don't trust her with my sister. there are times where she would forget to feed my sister because she's glued to her phone. i've been taking care of my sister to the point where she sometimes calls me mom. i've been so stressed between studies and trying to find a new job that i've started getting gray hairs, which is both cool and kinda sad
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