It's great that you are reaching out for help. We are so sorry to hear that you are feeling so much emotional pain that you are contemplating suicide. Know that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem; it won't solve anything. Suicide will only hurt you and your loved ones beyond repair. We can't stress enough how valuable your life is.
It's so important that you reach out for support from a trusted adult such as a parent, school counselor, teacher, coach, or minster. We would suggest getting evaluated by a medical doctor or mental health professional, and getting involved in counseling. Please contact 911 if you ever need immediate assistance. It may help you to talk to a counselor at a hotline. Know that there is help out there for you and you are not alone. Stay safe!
Boys Town National Hotline 1-800-448-3000, www.yourlifeyourvoice.org