If you did this it would be an EXTREMELY painful way to go. You would be in agony for hours while your organs start failing. Believe me, this would not be slow and not so peaceful end. Now, let me say this. I've been in your shoes. I've felt like no one cares, and not a single person would give me a second thought after I died. I'm a suicide attempt survivor not once, but three times. Each time I tried to end my life, I cast so much grief and pain onto my family and friends. When you kill yourself you pass all the pain and darkness on to those around you, and if you survive it never really goes away. I remember when my parents came into my hospital room and saw me hooked up to all those machines. I could practically see their hearts shatter through their eyes. Don't put those around you through what I put my family through. Find someone you can talk to, and if you don't feel comfortable doing that call or text a suicide prevention help line. Don't let your demons win.