How can I make friends with decent people while being a jaded complete mess?
So I am 25 and pretty much at my wits end with life. I live with my boyfriend on Boston s north shore which is so expensive, I cant afford my student loans without a roommate. Plus he is the only person I know here, I have no friends or family in this state. Me and him fight all the time and have done tons of stupid things together like being total potheads, doing psychedelics for days on end when we were younger, drinking too much, smoking crack, etc. Between my mom hitting me while growing up, and him, I cant remember a time I went more than a few days without being hit going all the way back to about 5 years old. I hang out with trashy people because I feel so gross around normal folks at this point, but they always end up turning on me because I somehow have a professional side as well. My dad is a lawyer and I grew up traveling the world, had my master s degree by 23 and currently work in an office making a good salary. So I end up driving ex heroin addicts and crackheads around all day since I m the one with the nice house and car. Im always spotting them money, cooking them dinner, etc. I miss my college days where I had normal friends and still had hope in life. Now I haven t had a real friend in a couple years and feel so lonely. Losing the will to live for sure.
- FoofaLv 76 months ago
First step, break up with this bad influence and move to an apartment you can share with a roommate or two who isn't a drug user. Then focus on your job, on paying off your student loans and on saving money for your future. Start a retirement plan if you don't have one already. Friends will come later once you've got something to offer. Right now you're not attractive to decent people because of the company you keep.
- PhilosophyAddictLv 76 months ago
if you have a good job working in an office how do you have time to drive crack heads around all day? if you can't afford to pay your bills without a room mate why are you giving money away to crack heads? I don't expect what you consider "decent people" would want to be around such a situation