Know we are here for you and want to help. It sounds like your emotional pain has become unbearable for you at this point. Know that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Suicide won't solve anything; it will only hurt you and your loved ones beyond repair. We can't stress enough how valuable your life is.
It's so important that you reach out for support from a trusted adult such as a parent, school counselor, teacher, coach, or minister. We would suggest getting evaluated by a medical doctor or mental health professional, and getting involved in counseling. Please contact 911 if you ever need immediate assistance. It may help you to talk to a counselor at a hotline. Know that there is help out there for you and you are not alone. Stay safe!
Boys Town National Hotline 1-800-448-3000, www.yourlifeyourvoice.org