The medical team which looks after you isn't the police. You may be warned about high blood sugar, but it's YOU who should be caring about you. When you have lost circulation from your fingers and toes, and they have to be removed, your medical team will only sigh and say 'we told him to control his blood sugars'. They will say the same when you develop raw open ulcers on your legs and ankles that won't heal. And yet again when you lose your eyesight through retinopathy. They will go home to live their lives, but you will be confined to a chair or bed, bored and in pain and wondering how long it's going to take to die. I hope I shock you, but it's only because I care. Diabetes is a dreadful disease that kills you by degrees. It is not a contest between a medical team trying to deny you all pleasures and you trying to outwit them and eat and drink what you want. Ultimately it's your choice. If I were you, I'd accept that I'd slipped off the wagon, but I'd be accepting responsibility, considering what will happen if I keep doing this, and try to climb back on board, before it's too late. Best wishes.