I just spent one whole year seeking God, and my life is a thousand times worse?

It was my New Years resolution last year. For one full year: 1. I prayed every morning and every night. 2. I read at least two chapters in the Bible and really thought about what it meant. 3. I tried to quit doing things that are supposed to be "wrong" in God's eyes. I wasn't perfect, but I... show more It was my New Years resolution last year. For one full year:

1. I prayed every morning and every night.
2. I read at least two chapters in the Bible and really thought about what it meant.
3. I tried to quit doing things that are supposed to be "wrong" in God's eyes. I wasn't perfect, but I always acted like God was watching me.

What did I get for my efforts?

1. My boyfriend of 2 years, who I thought I would marry, dumped me because I was "on a Jesus kick" and wouldn't have sex with him anymore.
2. My grandmother died in June, even though I prayed for her.
3. I got fired from one job and now I'm making less money.
4. My cat was diagnose with leukemia and had to be put to sleep.

I could go on about how shitty everything is now, theres a lot more. But my question is, WHY? Why did God allow all this to happen, and why did i never hear from him? I never felt comforted or happy, I just felt miserable all year.
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