make fun of you and of your family? no.. it would take an extremely evil person to make fun of suicide victims and family.. even the bullies at my school avoided kicking and punching over the head and groin..
no.. but fingers of blame can easily point at your family and at your loved ones when you do..
you probably have heard of the 5 stages of bereavement or loss (the typical 5 stages when your loved ones die out of sudden), which are: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance..
i have seen family-members lashing at each other in anger..
"why did you not tell me that he was depressed?" "why did you not get the help that she needed it?"
and according to statistics, the death of a child is one of the top reasons for divorce (and for family break-up) in America..
furthermore, i have seen families in depression..
that they stopped talking to each other after a loss of a child or a parent (real talks not small talks)..
i know my mom had stopped eating and taking care of herself after my dad passed away from Pancreatic cancer.. she blames herself for not seeing the signs of cancer, when her son (me) was an accomplished doctor.. and this is over something that is unavoidable because pancreatic cancers are one of the hardest to diagnose and to treat (by the time you detect it, it is already too late)..
can you imagine a death that was completely avoidable like suicide?..
completely avoidable with proper support, proper therapy and/or medications?..
to me, and i am sorry to say this,
i see suicide as the most selfish act a person can do without any good reasons..
i would understand the suicide by a Kamikaze pilot who flies into American ships, because he believes that the Americans will destroy his country and kill all his family.. i would understand a mother who jumps in front of her child against a mass-shooter.. i would even understand the reasons why my late father wished for discharge from the hospital; eventhough hospital admission could buy few more weeks of being alive; he felt the burden of a hospital admission on my family..
but what i cannot understand is a suicide when a person has a lot to live for..
who simply gave up when there are no good reasons to stop fighting..
and i am a very religious person,
and my religion tells me that a suicide the one of the worst sins that a person can commit.. a fully guaranteed ticket to Hell in the afterlife.. God wants us to be happy, to accomplish as much as we can, to worship him, to have a family, to do good things and all that stuff..
suicide is not one of those things..
and i know that religion is not for everyone, but i hope that you would consider religion (any mainstream non-cult religion).. to me and to millions of people around the globe, religion give us hope, it gives us a purpose and it provides comfort..
my religion provided the best comfort for my late father, my mom and to me myself..
seek proper help.. tell someone who is close to you, a family member, a friend, a doctor, a counsellor (and not some random online buddy).. make sure you seek proper help you need.. so go to a GP (family doctor) clinic, explain about your problems, and he/she may refer you to the appropriate clinic/office: a psychologist office, a psychiatrist clinic, a group therapy etc etc etc..
and if you are suffering a medical condition that is causing the depression, such as hypothyroidism, Diabetes Mellitus, Cushing's disease, PCOS; you would get the help you need..
depression is a debilitating mental illness that is serious and often makes a person contemplate about self-harm and about suicide.. but with proper help, medications and support, you can pull yourself out of it..
it starts by telling a person who is close to you in real life..
"help.. i have a problem and i need help.."
believe me that first step feels hard and difficult, but it is actually the easiest..
good luck, God bless and all the best..