I chose to believe in the deities I want to. The so called "one and only" God, the God of Jews, Christians and Islam, he's a war god whose only goal is to win your soul so you can be in his cube heaven (see Revelation) and unceasingly worship him for all eternity. So I believe he, unfortunately, exists but I do no have him in my pantheon, I can do better without a misogynistic, genocidal, bi-polar maniac, (I love you but I condemn you) God to help my spiritual life. Check out Goddesses, Mary was a Goddess, but of course we're not allowed to believe that because "God" would get jealous and we wouldn't want that. Being the maniacal murderer he is.