Weird question but help with the first time stuff?
So I won't go in major details but as a teen I was raped and abuse...
I'm 25 now, seeing a guy and we did sexual stuff and the next couple days I stayed having panic attacks and anxiety... I freaked out.
I obviously have had bad experience. I tried explaining that to gee guy he was being somewhat understanding. But I feel bad bc I said things I didn't mean
Has anyone going through this? Or anyone know if becoming sexual after trauma and suffering anxiety is normal??? How can I control this
Please help I don't want to be an anxious person. I just want to enjoy my time and feel like a normal human
Also I choose no sex until now just because I want it to be special and not rush.