Suicidal hated no mater what i do?
I have faults and flaw but why hate me? my faults are always brought up. If they ask me to do something, i do what i can to help. I help people if i can, generally nice, and laugh when i talk. Try not to offend people But everybody think i'm some bad person.
I guess because i'm tall and Black, and generally keep to myself. But there are other's that aren't hated. Mom says i hate my sister, but i don't, yeah we have had arguments, and she can be rude but i don't hate her.
I have done things for her, and have been willing to have a brother sister relationship,but it's obvious she don't want anything to do with me.
She can yell at mom, or be rude and it's ok, if i defend myself it's an issue. Now i am hated because i haven't been going to church, i was going to church, but haven't been going because i am not where i want to be in life.
So parents and other family members hate me. Though i have been hated, when i was going to church. Dad is ashamed of me, and wants nothing to do with me. I keep the yard cut so he doesn't have to do it. But mom says i hate them. But i try and do what i can to help.
Should i kill myself? hard to have confidence when you are hated.