Intellectually speaking, it seems you have declared yourself pointless. From a personal point of view, however, I can understand you in the way that I can empathise with you. The feelings are not uncommon among fellow human beings, where more than a few at one stage in their life or another do end up feeling in more or less similar way.
The existence has no purpose, no meaningful beginning or the end, life unintelligently unfair and living pointless. Some call this absurdism, I describe it as a falling flat at the feet of bare reality, with the loss of ability to bear hope or to dream. But the frightening fact is it is all correct, the feelings are not incorrect, the existence, the life, and the world IS pointless. And for a mind that could not have hope, that could not have its dreams, desires and ambitions, the world will remain pointless, and life a source of hurtful feelings and deadly thoughts. This is the trap, but only for those who have lost their ability to dream and to shape their world by transforming their dreams into reality.
The world is a want, the life is a want, it is a vacant space that only the ones who are truly alive could fulfil, with efforts, with their vision, with the reality born out of the best of their dreams. Just imagine what if the life was already fulfilled with the contents for living, what is if all that we need to do in life was already done, all the meaning given, and all the points made, what would there be for us to life for – in such a world we would not find even a nutshell of a space for accommodation.