Feelings of Anger instigates your hormone glands to produce large amounts of hormone chemicals in the brain and body to put you into a "fight mode", where in the past you would have been a soldier fighting in a war with swords or spears, in today's society you have no real outlet for your anger. After a fighting episode in the past war time, a soldier would have used up all of those chemicals in "fight mode" and the feeling of pent-up anger would be released. By being in perpetual "fight mode" with your pent-up anger, you have built up a lot of this brain/hormone chemical but have not really released enough of it to put your brain and body back to normal hormone levels. This amount of hormone will indeed make you feel anger and hate towards anyone around you, much like an animal ready to snap and bite at any given moment at anything that moves. In prison, the concept is for you to be away from people while you calm down over time. But sometimes there is no real release for the pent-up hormone anger, and so many inmates fight constantly rather than work out their problems peacefully. If you are up for probation soon, ask about possibly being allowed to get a job at junkyard, where you can smash and destroy things legally and get paid for it, all the while taking out this built-up hormone chemical fury on junk that needs to be broken apart. When the feelings of anger have been used up, then go to counseling or group therapy as required by your probation, but ask about help for some anger management, as well as ideas for jobs that require minimal human contact, where you can deal with one person at a time rather than 20 at a time. Some ideas for work with minimal human contact? Well, the junk yard or scrap yard! A job tearing apart cars for a "pick-and-Pull" automotive parts supplier, where you tear apart cars and engines for specific parts. Also try forest tree-cutting, where you are out in the woods cutting down trees for forest fire management. I know California has a program for prisoners to work as a forest fire crew and they regularly go out to forests around housing communities and clear trees and brush to reduce wildfire intensity, so ask your prison counselor about the possibility to be signed up for a fire crew as a healthy way to use this pent-up energy. There is also a need for labor crews to remove weed and brush from around electric power poles all over the wild open country, and this physical work would certainly help you feel less like an animal in a cage! You being a former prisoner is not so much of an issue for these labor jobs in the middle of, say, the desert of New Mexico and Arizona or the wild of Alaska or the North and South Dakotas where so much open land and space means minimal human contact except for the labor crew doing brush clearing for roads and around electric power poles. So ask if you can do part of your probation first as maybe a freeway litter crew, or ask about a wildfire crew, and get this constant feeling of anger worked out through working your body and using the physical energy. Along the way, learn how to be a little more reasonable about other people with weird problems. Patience can be very, very hard. I confess I had to move 40 miles away from the city in order to get away from constant noise and daily people! Now that I have lived here for several years, I DO feel a lot calmer and less stressed-out by other people behaving badly!But yes, even having a toilet-cleaning job 40 hours a week at a national park where I did physical labor 8 hours a day did help burn off a lot of those feelings of perpetual anger for several years. Once I found my place of peace and quiet, I now have more days of absorbing sun on my deck and listening to the birds and far less inner desire to start a fight with people around me. I DO wish you luck in being able to find your place in this world, but I do wish you HOPE that your counselor will agree to let you join a work program as part of your probation. And even more so, I do wish you HOPE that an employer for a labor crew will see you trying to overcome this issue rather than perpetuate it, and give you a chance as you try to overcome this. ANd just one more thought for you --- it's a bit Zen -------- someone once told me that there is no such thing as "White Magic" or "Black Magic" -- that energy in of itself is not a thing that has a preference for good or bad --------- energy is just energy. And the same power it takes to do tremendous evil is the same energy power that can do the same amount of tremendous good! So perhaps find a way to turn this amount of energy of anger and hate into energy towards doing amazing good. Destruction is easy - any two-year-old can destroy something. But CONSTRUCTION, well, that is that much harder, but the energy spent to build or grow for positive effect turns grassland burnt and destroyed by fire into green grass and forests again. I wonder what a person like you could do if you spent all this energy inside trying to do a tremendous good instead of this hate and evil? Anyway, food for thought. I do wish you luck and Hope in getting past this and letting go and moving on!