I have adjudicated hundreds if not thousands of pianists - among all the others I also adjudicate in voice and flute. Every so often, we get somebody like you that thinks if they can slobber and plow their way thru part o a *famous* piece, that they are a genius. What they play is 99 percent of the time HIDEOUS - no technique, no idea of phrasing, counting and rhythm is abyssal - I could go on. I would bet that you pawing around on the piano is about as good as your spelling, grammar, and use of the space bar. you can post a video of yourself playing - and those of us that are multi-decade career professional in classical music and music instruction will assess you just as we do with any other stranger that comes into our adjudication room.