I am a "failure"4 not subscribing to the values of the family I was born into.. I did not succeed in a career, or make a lot of money, or have the kind of success-oriented"image" my narcissistic/materialistic/status-driven family prized; was therefore an "embarrassment"/"failure". So, I was relegated to the world of shrinks/medication, labeled "mentally ill" because was 2 aware, raised 2 many inconvenient/uncomfortable questions; rejected their "sacred" values, which was a sin 4 which I could not forgiven.Awareness/consciousness of spiritual bankruptcy of my family's core values was something they could not handle. I needed to be discredited. So my "failure" in a sense, in this lifetime, has been both my cross to bear and my redemption simultaneously. The rejection of values I felt were empty and false, and my subsequent punishment for their rejection.I've spent many hours questioning why I "chose" this family to be born into, what karmic lessons I was placed within it to learn.