Step one is to stop assuming that talking to your adviser is "pointless." If you keep telling yourself that, then you will prove yourself correct, but you have nothing to lose by trying to develop a positive attitude. Go into that conversation with the idea that you are looking for ways to put things right. You seem to be honest about your previous mistakes, and that's fine, but it isn't enough. You need ways to show that you have changed direction, and the adviser will help you with that goal. You also need to develop a "Plan B" in the event that the scholarship is a lost cause. Can you re-apply for the scholarship at a later point, and possibly get it back? Are you close enough to finishing your degree that you could borrow the remainder of the necessary money? Could you temporarily withdraw, take classes at a community college, and return later? And, if you are going to stay where you are, what can you do to improve your relationship with the professors whom you have offended? Will it be possible for you to simply avoid taking any classes from them in the future? Can you begin to put things right by writing a letter telling them that your point of view has changed, and that you hope they will be open minded enough to give you another chance for a good "student/teacher" relationship? The adviser can help you in all of these questions, so don't assume that the conversation is "pointless." In fact, it will be one of the most important conversations you may ever have.