Being cut into 17 pieces parallels the Egyptian mythology about Osiris being cut into 14 pieces by Set -- & Isis seeking all the pieces. To my understanding Mary Magdalene was a Priestess of Isis before she discovered & united with Yeshua in what became *their* ministry.
LOH means Lord of Hosts?
You wrote, "I was found on a Jesus Platform nailed there and it said 'I am the resurrection and the life' my mother awoke very frightened."
Certainly Mary Magdalene *experienced* those feelings of Jesus being crucified, many times in her life, every time she would remember & have nightmares of it. How *she* ended up dying out of that incarnation -- who truly knows? The different women who perceive themselves as having been her remember differently. But Mary Suzanne Luck remembers being tortured for... i think it was... 4 days before she finally died. It's not *impossible* that the historical Magdalene *was* cut up into 17 pieces by her torturers. And it's possible you *might* be... this time around or in some future incarnation.
And yet Mary Magdalene... as with Yeshua... has never *truly* died. That death-of-the-physical-body was only a metamorphosis into their Larger Spiritual Essence, a return to their Larger Self.
One of the things Yeshua told me in July of this year (i've just finished typing-in & proof-reading the Voice*Notes for that month) was something along the lines of, "I thought you understood that we are the *same*." -- in reference to Mary Magdalene & himself. Their soul-essences are two halves of the same whole.
The *return* of the *genuine* Mary Magdalene Spiritual Essence into incarnation (being, in reality, ChristSophia in her Essence of Being) -- in her total Oneness with Yeshua -- *is* fully as much "the resurrection and the life" as is Christ, as is Sophia.
Three of the Magdalene incarnates (relative to whom i have *no* doubts as their authenticity -- for each of them has been *proven* to me to be her *reality*) have had abusive mothers, this-incarnation-around.