You are going through exactly what i'm going through too. I've been crying myself to sleep every night, sit in the bath and cry, sit home alone watching glee and crying whenever he comes on. It's normal to feel this way, I adore him too, It's such a shock and you're never alone. Don't be embarrassed, everybody is obsessed with a celebrity. If you get **** for it, just ask them how they'd feel if their idol passed away. It will take you a while to get over, but whatever you do, don't hold in your tears. If you have to cry, then do it, whether it's alone or with someone.