I like watching gay porn but feel gross after?

Okay so I'm a straight 15 year old guy, I have a girlfriend (our 1 year anniversary is in 2 days) and I really love her. I really like watching gay porn and looking at fit guys when I masturbate, and I sometimes glance at hot guys in public, but I always feel gross and bad about myself after. I watch straight... show more Okay so I'm a straight 15 year old guy, I have a girlfriend (our 1 year anniversary is in 2 days) and I really love her. I really like watching gay porn and looking at fit guys when I masturbate, and I sometimes glance at hot guys in public, but I always feel gross and bad about myself after. I watch straight porn sometimes, but only really good straight porn will get me off. I am very open minded and I have a few gay friends, but I don't think I'd ever actually have a relationship with another man. Why do I feel like this? When I'm horny I'm fine with being aroused and jacking off to guys but after I feel really bad about myself. Sometimes I even feel like I'm being unfaithful to my girlfriend. I just need some help on what's going on with me!
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