omg, howls moving castle?! my brother showed that to my family and i loved it! i feel the same, sometimes. i personally love the rapper who's name is also a candy (it won't let me say his name!), but if anyone found out, i don't think some of my friends would look at me the same.
i know it is certainly not to the degree you are at, but still. i mean, my fave word means "deemed to be worthless" and my phone wallpaper is a picture of an apple i was eating and somehow managed to turn into a screaming face. i am weird. but you will find the right crowd that accepts you for who you are, i found, like, twenty best friends and, just recently, a boyfriend who do. you will, too! trust me, accept who you are and others will too, embrace who you are and it will take you very far! love who you are and the world will follow, and live life to the fullest!