I don't know.
I'm worth more dead than alive. I walk through this world like a zombie. I stay busy, I have goals and projects that I'm working on...but I say why? But why? My life ain't worth anything. The planetary beings are blocking on all sides. I am restrained both physically, mentally and spiritually. I am like a bloom that never opened, and just withered on the tree and died. God chooses not to intervene. The physical humanoids do not anger me. They are so happy and enjoying life. The deer frolic in the fields. Cattle graze in green pastures. Frogs jump from one lily pad to another...soon their croaks will fill the air. Yet everything seems so distant, like a distant star, something you can see, yet not touch.
I cannot explain why I came into this world. And I cannot explain why I am this far in life.
One day I know I won't have to endure this confusion,suffering and pain anymore, and the sooner the better.