Is it possible that I getting over my obsession with obsession with/attraction to transsexual women?
I was obsessed with post-op transsexual women for almost a decade and always wanted to try having sex with post-op transsexuals. Most of the pornography I watched was post-op transsexual porn. I probably watched transsexual porn 9 times out of 10 dedicating a mere 10% of my pornographic activity to normal cisgender female pornography. I would think about post-op transsexuals many times per day to the point where it became an obsession and the key defining point of my sexuality.
However, recently I have experienced a change in my sexual behavior. Now 90% of the time I fantasize about normal cisgender females and feel repelled by transsexual pornography for some reason.
Recently I am much more interested or even possibly exclusively interested in normal cisgender females. Just recently I have developed a feeling of resistance against the idea of sleeping with a transsexual women.
I know that some people will say that transsexual women are women, not at all men, and therefore sleeping with transsexual women is not an act of gayness, but for me it goes beyond the simplistic "sleeping with transsexual women is not gay" argument.
I don´t believe that transsexuals are just men with surgically altered genitals, therefore I don´t believe that sleeping with a post-op transwomen would make a man gay. However, recently I feel developing inside me a predilection for what is natural. For me, what is natural feels right, it feels pure, it feels kosher for the lack of a better term. On the other hand, what is not purely natural induces feelings of uneasiness and guilt.
Since transsexual vaginas are artificially created through surgical procedures using male tissue for other purposes, they are not natural. Before I had a liking for what wasn´t natural, but now I have an inclination for what is purely rooted in nature.
What might be the cause of this radical change in sexual preference?
I only have one hypothesis so far: the natural desire to reproduce. Maybe I am at the coming of an age where biologically I am inclined towards procreation (on a subconscious level) and for that reason I have felt a impulse to distance myself from my previous transsexual fantasies.
I want input on this phenomenon.
I also find it funny how people from the LGBT community demonize me for my previous sexual desires. I can´t help what I like. When a gay can´t help what he likes it´s all OK but whenever anyone else is into something different and through no fault of his own cannot change what he likes then it´s all different! Does that sound fair? Don´t you see your hypocrisy? People like you make me sick.
I´ve seen SRS surgery. There is nothing natural about it at all! You can´t fool me! I know that female vaginas and transsexual vaginas are not the same. You are entitled to live in a delusional fantasy if you want but I´m not going to buy into your delusions.
The question is about my changing sexual behavior, not your problems with transphobia. The whole world doesn´t revolve around you!