First off Justin, I want to say how sorry I am that you have to deal with this. :/
I was bullied for years in school, including getting mocked, teased, sexually harassed and even smacked a few times so I know just how you feel.
I know things are scary right now and I know you feel alone.
But you're NOT alone Justin, there are lots of people who care and want to help you.
I care and I don't even know you. :)
Don't worry about these thoughts you're having, they're perfectly natural.
Being bullied is bound to make you feel victimised which in turn would make you feel angry and upset.
I know just what those thoughts are like...they're so clear that they actually work you into a rage and you feel tired afterwards.
But don't panic about your mental stability, what you're doing is a normal reaction to getting bullied.
Also, I don't want to patronise you by saying this but at your age (the high school years), it's very common to feel so angry.
So as long as you don't act on them, everything's fine. :)
If it really bothers you though, go talk to a guidance counsellor.
Be honest with them and tell them everything you've said here.
They should be happy to help you out. :)
Now, about the bullying...
You've got to TELL someone Justin.
Tell a teacher, the principal, your parents, a guidance counsellor or just someone you trust. Keep telling and telling and telling until somebody listens and something is DONE about this. Go to the police if you have to.
And hey, I know the idea of telling can be really scary. I know it seems like it will make everything worse but trust me, it's for the best. I went through years of bullying and never told anyone anything. I regretted it for a long time afterwards so PLEASE TELL.
No one has the right to make you feel intimidated Justin.
And listen to me...This won't last forever.
High school is definitely NOT the best days of your life, there are much happier times ahead of you.
These bullies won't always be a part of your life and you won't always feel this bad. :)
I don't even know you and can tell you that you're a great person who is awesome exactly the way you are.
You are a valuable and important human being Justin, never forget that. :)
Good luck with whatever you decide to do, I wish you nothing but happiness in your life! :)
And try not to panic, everything will be alright. :)
My own personal opinion. It could be wrong of course and maybe I typed a bit too much but it's the best advice I could think of giving you. Good luck pal, you'll be OK! :)