Please allow me some time to read you details in depth and get back with you ...... I will be praying for you.
Hello, Jack. I will write more later. But in the meanwhile, i want you to go and read 1Cor. 12:1 - 13: 3. Then pull out your Strong’s Concordance and look up and read any scriptures having to do with “the gifts of the Spirit” and “the fruit of the Spirit”. I am charismatic myself, believing in speaking in tongues/etc., but it makes me furious when charismatic people teach people that ALL Christians are supposed to speak in tongues ... leaving them feeling like God is rejecting/etc. them if they don’t. . You go read those. And i will write further later. But those should begin to help, okay? . Jesus has NOT rejected you; remember how He said, “Anyone who comes to Me, I will in no wise cast out” and “I will be with you even until the end of the earth.” . So, you go read those ---- and you believe God/Jesus Christ, not any person. Okay?
I’m back, Jack.
I won’t be listing any scriptures, but that is only to save space. I am guessing that you will probably know the scriptures i am referring to ... but if you don’t, i believe your pastor, being a Baptist, most likely will.
. I heard Dr. Jim Dobson say something many years ago: “Christians are the only army that shoots its own wounded.” But i have found from my own experience and those of others, that we have also become an army that doesn’t allow them to even admit that they are wounded and to ask for help ... and demands that they continue fighting despite their massive injuries. The Word of Faith teachings currently common in the many of the charismatic denominations do that to people ~~~ and did that to me, too. It made me feel like it was my fault because i was having problems and struggles and that i wasn’t praying enough or didn’t have enough faith or i wouldn’t be having these struggles .... or something .....
The thing is, Jack, that is NOT what Jesus and God the Father are like. God knows when we are hurting, when we are struggling, and how to minister to us ---- and He not only ALLOWS us to be real about when we are hurting and struggling but WANTS us to be and wants us tell Him about it. The Old Testament is FULL of examples of this, but my personal favourites are Elijah when he fled the queen’s threats and Moses when He talked with him at the burning bush.
We know that Jesus is a friend of sinners, but do you remember how the Bible also says how He will not break a cracked reed flute or put out an ember that is just about to go out? And the Gospels are full of examples of Him ministering to and healing the hurting and wounded and struggling people. He is, after all, our Good Shepherd Who cares for us ... He is our Helper and Healer. Do you remember He also said, “In this world you will have troubles; but fear not, I have overcome the world ... I will never leave you nor forsake you ... Behold, I will be with you even until the end of the age.”
The good thing is that you are in a Baptist church and that denomination tends to be real and allows its members to be real. Go to your pastor and share with him what you are experiencing and struggling with.
Please allow me to recommend that you follow-up with other resources that have helped me; they all have websites. New Life Ministries. Hank Hanegraaff/The Bible Answer Man/The Bible Reseach Institute/equip.org. The Church of God In-ternational, specifically Mount Paran North Church of God/Dr. Mark L. Walker/in Marietta, Georgia, United States. Max Lucado. David Jeremiah. Family Life Today. Focus on the Family. Christian Counsellors Association of America.
. There is something else i think might help you; pull up the lyrics for the song “The Warrior is a Child”, because, no matter what, you are the precious little child and son of God the Father and Jesus Christ.
. I don’t have much more space here, Jack, but that should help you at least a little bit and help point you in the right direction to find more help.
. And, of course, read your Bible and allow Him to speak to you through that ... especially John and Psalms (i heard someone say that the Bible is God’s love letter to His children).
. I will be praying for you, my brother in Jesus Christ.