No, and Ted Bundy, Jeffry Dahmer, and David Berkowitz are my heroes, because they taught me that serial killers who kill innocent people are pathetic, and this saved me from becoming a serial killer as well:
I was six years old the first time I had an overwhelming urge to kill someone for pleasure, and I spent most of my childhood killing and torturing animals (I am ashamed of this even while the serial killer inside is proud of it) and fantasizing about senseless murder. I began to idolize fictional serial killers like Hannibal Lecter during my early teens and then moved onto intense interest in actual killers.
Serial murder always starts with fantasies . . . always.
In 2008, I found myself standing outside of a man's house with the intent to sneak in and suprise him during dinner with a shot to the face for no other reason than that I thought it would be entertaining. That man has no idea how close to death he came that night. I had zero emotion for people I didn't know, and even used to laugh at video footage of actual murders (the more brutal, the better, I thought). I think that being killed by a grinning person with a hard-on is far more evil and terrifying than being killed out of hatred or anger.
When I realized what kind of monster was inside me, I snapped and ended up in the hospital with psychosis. I even once believed that I had a demon. There I admitted to this stuff, and this helps to hold me accountable when I go through the addiction cycle with these urges.
You shouldn't respect serial killers because they are ruthless, you should learn from the ones who openly confessed and set about warning others. These are people like Dahmer, Bundy, and Berkowitz.
Ted Bundy and H. H. Holmes are from the same town I am. Always thought that was interesting, especially because I was on track to being a third.
· 7 years ago