OK it sounds like you have post partum depression, that means your hormones are out of balance from the pregnancy and they are having trouble getting back into balance. I doubt that you have bpd, but even if you supposedly do, for which someone will likely diagnose it given your behavior, then I am going to tell you, that once diagnosed with that you will be prejudiced for the rest ofyour life among doctors, who have no help or cure for you.
Instead, find a doctor that will test properly for your hormone balances, and find one that is a 'hormone replacement doctor, or HRT doctor' instead ofseeing an obgyn, because the treatments will be very different. An obgyn will or MAY test for a few things and just throw antidepressants at it, without really testing properly. Take a minute now and go look att he tests she gives here, she has them listed on her site, those are the ones you need and the type of doctor, thehallcentervenice.com
, or go here thyroidpower.com , they are a husband wife team, MD and Phd psychiatric nurse that broke out of the medical protocol 'box' and became the worlds leading hormone experts and use a lot of natural things to get someone back in balance, since the medical profession has nothing besides hormone replacement, or steroids. So, you can ask these doctors questions at thecanaryclub.org, where they sometimes answer questions. Go there and ask your questions.
You need to stop cutting right away, because that will be interpreted by mental health traditionally trained as bpd, or something worse. Stop it. You can heal.
In fact , if this is your hormones, you can feel better in as little as 24 hours of treatment, which is why I am encouraging you to find the best possible hormone replacement doctor , or in a pinch an obgyn that WILL test your basic hormones , properly. They will stil offer you antidepressants, that you can look up at this doctor site, mercola.com, because they will not cure you, probably not help you ,and certainly won't straighten out any hormone imbalances. It is not one size fits all, like their protocol.
So, there is a high probability that you are also feeling this way because of the fears, thoughts being triggered by the hormones and the life changes you are in.
Something about your situation, the baby, your home life, something is off , something you fear, something is going on within you about it. It is making your symptoms worse.
I think that the outcome of any treatment will be determined , for anyone, by the type of treatment they get, it is predictable in most cases , and if itis a match for the individual.
That is why I have listed resources on my home page here at YA that I think and know are good at actually resolving emotional pain ,even stuff that goes way back, quickly, easily without pain, and there is even a free version, or professional one listed . It is EFT. Go look, find someone to help you if you need it, some will work over the phone. eftmasters.com, or search EFT for your area, just make sure they are properly trained .
Those are the things I would say are the best chance of helping you resolve this quickly and the eft works so that the things don't come back up.
Your other option, is to go see an obgyn, or psychiatrist, get put on drugs that they will want you to stay on the rest of your life, stay in therapy, again, the rest ofyour life, and the best outcome is tomaybe learn to 'manage your symptoms'.
I would go for the healing.
Happy Holidays, you can heal. Go for it. Today.
EDIT: the doctors at thyroidpower.com (the drs shames), recommend panax ginseng to help rebalance hormones produced by the adrenals, at 600mg at night. I would say try that also and you will feel the effect , subtle, but notice the difference in how you feel within a month , and take it indefinitely until you are back in balance.
Of course, I am not a doctor, and I am just offering suggestions and ideas about what it might be , and how you could treat it. It is up to you ,
· 7 years ago