I started to drink at the age of 14. I WAS the kind of drunk who could not put the drink down so I had to quit. I ended up drinking from when I woke up to when I went to bed every day for years. I began to isolate my self from the sober people, only hanging out with the few people who were drunk as me.
When I was drinking I wasn't mean but I wasn't friendly, I was just how I normally was because I began to just function drunk. I would get woken up by cops in places I have no idea how I got there.
I had withdrawals where I would shake so bad I would be spilling my drink all over me.
Beleive it or not, Its alot of f***king work being a drunk, making sure you have a bottle at all times cause you feel like you cant breath with out it. With no money. Drinking outside in -30 cause you feel so isolated. My daily rutine was, how long can this bottle last? How urgently do I need to get another one? Do I have enough for tonight? How will I get my next bottle? Will I have to pandhandle? See if one of my friends has one? Beg My family?
Sober now and plan to stay sober... but I do miss it sometimes. Down the road I plan to drink again, just not any one of these years.
And sorry for everyone freaking out at you for drinking and driving. My dad drank and drove me around all the time growing up ever sense I remember. He drove just fine, never been in any accedents. It is true some people can drink and drive, some cant