I feel worthless, Please help :'(?

I feel worthless I'm now 20 I still live at home I'm no longer attending college... and missed the deadline for this semester I have never had a boyfriend or any kind of male affection in anyway... i've never held hands even... never had a boy crush on me I feel beautiful 95% of the time I... show more I feel worthless
I'm now 20
I still live at home
I'm no longer attending college... and missed the deadline for this semester
I have never had a boyfriend or any kind of male affection in anyway... i've never held hands even...
never had a boy crush on me

I feel beautiful 95% of the time
I feel I have confidence i'm just painfully shy

I have no friends.. I just moved to a new state with my family
we are always out of money... I have really bad depression because I feel like an unaccomplished loser...
I don't know what to do .. every time I set a goal I always fail
i'm not having a pitty party but this is actually how I feel 24/7

i'm such a disappointment
please help me find a way to turn my life around .. and stay positive because I don't know how much I can actually take anymore .... I pray every night but I've pretty much lost all of my faith completely I try just because i'm told "that is what i'm supposed to do" but ...idk .... I need help figuring out how to not bring myself and how I can get out of this DEEP DARK PLACE in what should be a WONDERFUL time of my life ... I feel worthless.
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