Yes, very much lately. A friend of mine passed away (only fifteen and a week before his birthday; he even got to play Romeo in a play we were in) very recently. I AM a Christian, so I DO believe in Heaven, but I'm *super* close to just saying that I'm Agnostic because I asked some questions about Heaven of people who supposedly know and understand the bible perfectly, and they tried to make it seem like they knew a lot, but everything they told me wasn't very specific. If I can't get specifics on what's going on after death, which is where God comes in the most, how am I supposed to believe? I'm not into blindly following.