It will get better, trust me. I was there, I was like you once. Going through a lot of depression and denial and hate. You can't just give up. Listen, don't do anything stupid. Because we don't have people it will get better for nothing, because it will. For all of us, worse turns into better. I can understand that there are a lot of jerks in the gay community, I know but you are also thirteen, and whether you were straight or gay, people wouldn't take you seriously. That is the honest truth. You're focusing too much on the bad and not on the good.
I really want you to realize what I am saying. I have gone through serious depression in life and bullied for being different. Because at twelve thirteen people would ask why I never talked about girls or had a girlfriend, but that is the past. And kids, are so mean. Everyone gets bullied.
I think that school is the worse thing that this society has put on us, but we learn from it.
Imagine the future, think about it. I know there will be a lot of bumps, but sweetheart, you can do it. The fact that you posted this tells me that you are strong, and I know you're fighting it inside and trust me, it is not a choice sometimes. But you can fight it, there are so many people that care about you, I know it but you don't notice it. And that girl was never a real friend. There are NO real friends in this world. I have been backstabbed and hurted by so many friends. Even with depression and crazy antidepressants and I did it hard to go through it and there were times where I couldn't even get up from bed. I would stay there ALL day in a room with the windows shut.
But now, I am better and happy and appreciate life. Because believe it or not, life is too precious to let go of it. And you'll have real friends. You're thirteen. You're probably in middle school. Middle school sucks so bad. 7th grade was the worst for me. I understand. I do.
If you need someone to talk to, just msg me and I'll even give you my number if you need someone to talk to.
I hope you read this through and understand,