Alright -- let's cut through this and see what we can do.
1. I don't know where you live, but I'm guessing it is in the Deep South. No matter where it is, internalize the following, you don't have to ever say it to them, but YOU need to know it: Your parents are insane. Period. Fundamentalism of any kind at the level you are describing in the modern world indicates an incapability on the part of those practicing it to see reality at all - and not dealing with reality is in fact, insanity. It's sad, its pathetic, but its what is and what you have to deal with. If I hadn't already known that, you mentioned reparative therapy, which has been condemned as destructive by every single major first world medical, psychological, and sociological organization. Practitioners of this discredited system number only a few hundred and formulated their own association, which rather than being recognized as a professional organization is recognized as a trade group, which truly is pathetic. California is about to bar it for minors and the APA is pushing for informed consent for adults. As a therapy its a joke, except for those who are forced to undergo it, as you were - those people it can damage, at least partially because of the outright bald-faced lies it tells (things like "gays don't form real relationships" and "gays are all drug addicted sex-fiends" and "its a lifestyle" and so forth), partially because they misquote or misuse the research of other experts, WHO HAVE IN MANY CASES SPECIFICALLY ASKED THEM TO STOP misusing their work, or are even suing their organization or its religious backers, and partially because the "methods" primarily used were discredited as causing real change decades ago.
2. Everything you are undergoing is intended to undercut your self-esteem and break you down. The idea is, they think that if you are broken down enough you will "become" what they want. The reality is that you will become increasingly depressed, self-destructive, and possibly kill yourself. I very much doubt that everyone is looking at you differently, but I would guess that you perceive them as looking at you differently because your family's actions have at least driven you to paranoia -- and if you actually give in and sink into clinical insanity, they will tell each other its because you were gay. It will actually be exclusively because of them.
3. Suicide and depression are not answers. they can NEVER be answers. EVER. So STOP. You want help? The first thing you do is stop the depression and stop the suicide, and it IS within your power to do so.
Now then, unless you are in this area, which is doubtful - there is little I can do directly to help you -- but that doesn't mean I can't help you. There are organizations everywhere that I can get you in contact with. The organization I find to help you could be anything - including something religious - not ALL religious people are like your parents and their abomination of a church. It might be something political. It might be an LGBTQ group -- or person --- but I will find someone to help you if you are in the US if you are serious.
My email is in my profile. If you are serious contact me. I need to know your city and state at a minimum, and whether or not there is public transportation that you can use. I need to know how you can be contacted besides email - IF you can be contacted besides email. If there isn't public transportation, I need your address to try to figure out what is actually walking distance from you - if anything is.
If you don't have an email account -- then dump the depression and STOMP the idea of "oh I can't" -- and go forward to make a free account on one of the sites below. Do not let depression win ANYTHING AT ALL. Go forward, you may not believe it but you can triumph in every way.