If I told my therapist about suicidal thoughts?
The past 2 weeks I have been getting suicidal thoughts, I have come up with several ways to try and kill myself like overdosing, jumping in front of a train that runs by my house everynight, jump in front of a car, etc. I planned out in my head what I would write in my suicide letter, but I can never seem to get the guts/courage to actually kill myself (ok well one night i was going to overdose but after like 6 pills stopped and threw everything up) mostly because I don't want to hurt my mom like that. When I go to therapy should i lie and tell her i have been fine? Or should i tell her i have had thoughts but never acted or both had thoughts and acted? I don't want to end up in the mental ward at a hospital (if she sends me there i will probably NEVER talk to her again and would want to leave in an hour, can the mental section in hospitals do that? Check me and let me go home after a couple hours?)
If you read all that then wow, thanks