I am not religious and this book is not so much religious as it is common sense and better than any medication or therapy out there, go to the library and get Conversations with God Book 1 by Neale Donald walsh. I hit rock bottom a good 8 years or so ago, I had severe panic attacks, then depression because I felt I couldn't be normal, I even became somewhat anorexic due to my depression. My dogs groomer told me to read that book and I laughed at her and told her I would never understand anything to do with God because at that time in my life I felt that if there was a God, he was against me. I am spiritual but not religious. I have had many spiritual experiences since childhood and yet never understood the bible, just went with what I actually KNEW from experience. After reading that book, within weeks into reading it I noticed my panic attacks stopped, I still feared having them but I didn't actually have them. I would begin to panic and realize it wasn't actually happening. I had more mind control. I look back as bad as I was, so bad that I don't know if I would still be here had it not been for that book. One thing it says that I still remember after all these years of reading it is that we have 2 emotions in life that we react upon, one is love, the other is fear. Like jealousy for instance, it is a fear of losing and or fear of never having. Please get the book, at least try to read through it, you won't know until you try. I wish you the best. You can beat this, and you CAN and ARE normal and can live a normal life again. I used to sit by my window and watch cars go by wondering why I couldn't just get in my car and go like everyone else does, watching everyone live while I just exists. It is NOT a nice place to be- get that book, get a positive attitude, you will have a different perspective on life, begin to laugh at life in a way, find humor in stressful issues, and not take things as serious. You also may be indigo which I am, look up indigo and indigo adults and see if you match any of those traits because many of us who are indigo usually suffer from anxiety and depression until we better understand who we really are. Many hugs- Karen PS: meditation helps too!