1. I get wanting to have a kid but you're only 14! Having a kid is a big responsibility. Waking up all hours, going to school, going to work, watching it. And you can't just have a baby and expect someone to do all the work just becuase you don't want to. You have a lot of life still to go. You're only 14, for all you know tomorrow you and him could break up. What are you going to do if you both break up and you're pregnant?
2.I get not wanting to be an old mom but being a young one can damage not only the baby, yeah it can damage the baby becuase you might not be ready even though you think you are, but it can also damage you. Like physically becuase your bodies not mature yet.
3.Poking holes will work but like I said you're only 14. Give yourself time to be a teen