My Birthday is tomorrow....and i goggled.."I hate my birthday"...And there you were...When i read your comment i couldn't believe of how much of this just related to me, and even i started to cry.
I found myself wanting to tell you that things will get better. But in the end, from reading what we both mutually feel in this case.
In the end, realistically speaking we are both responsible for the way our life is, hence the only we can do is make the best of what can now, before things get worst. (I'm not sure about your case but the self is usually responsible).
We cannot turn back to the past and rectify what we have done to upset our family, however we can find other ways to not only improve ourselves but also have them proud. In the end this is our life, we don't need others approval but ourselves.
there is so much more i'd love to type, but ahh, i'm a bit depressed myself. All this is easier said than done. But with a positive attitude, determination, and discipline we can achieve so much.
Hope this helps us.
Thanks to others who have left inspiring comments.