let me tell you something. ive been in this situation before. once a cheater, always a cheater! if she has the evil in her heart to do something degrating like that, then you obviously need to find a respectful girl that will wait out anything and really does love you. if she loved you, she wouldve overcome those feelings of lust and awaited for you to cure it. love is a strong word, and to me it seems as if this girl doesnt understand the true meaning of it. of coarse you will feel empty for a long while, this comes naturally with love. you will get over her, as sson as you find the right girl. and that wont happen over night hun, just to let you know. best of luck(: take this into consideration and protect your heart but follow your heart.