Why should I stay alive? How can I find a reason to live?
11 years later, I still haven't found a reason. I completely lost my faith. I was raped in college. I still have to drink or drug myself to sleep at night. I have a wonderful boyfriend, but doesn't fix anything.
I'm still alive, and I think I can hang on longer for them. But the pain is overwhelming sometimes. I feel alone, and my life feels like its without meaning. What can I do?
I've tried reconnecting with the church dozens of times. I try to believe in God...but just can't pretend anymore.
I do volunteer work, lead advocacy organizations. My career path is dedicated to service. I know I do good work. But I feel alone and hollow. I have no goals, no real drive or desire to wake up everyday. How can I find a reason to live?