I completely understand how confusing this situation can be. I went through the same struggle three years ago. I was so afraid of telling everyone that I was gay for fear of rejection. But one day, I just was tired of feeling the way you feel now and decided to tell everyone. And honestly, it was the best day of my life. After I told my parents, relatives, friends, and classmates about my sexuality, they all pretty much said the same thing. They all said Josh, we already knew you were gay but we love you for you and your sexuality doesn't matter to us. So my best advice is to try and tell someone. Possibly take it in steps and tell your parents first. Being your parents they do love you and will accept your sexuality. Maybe not at first, but eventually they will. Then maybe tell your closest friends. If they are true friends they will understand. If you are not yet ready or comfortable enough to tell anyone right now, just realize that people out here understand and will help you and support you any way possible.