Im addicted to porn/masturbation.... HELP?

im 18 years old and a STRONG christian..... yea.......but non of us are perfect (or anywere near lol) and this started when i was very young.. i started masturbating in about the 7th 8th grade.. porn in the 9th ish grade.. i was curious.. i never even when through sex ed .... so it started with curiosity ... now... show more im 18 years old and a STRONG christian..... yea.......but non of us are perfect (or anywere near lol) and this started when i was very young.. i started masturbating in about the 7th 8th grade.. porn in the 9th ish grade.. i was curious.. i never even when through sex ed .... so it started with curiosity ... now its a HUGE problem... if im on the computer... its a fight to not go to certain sites.. and its like i cant stop.. im just there.. looking at it.. I DONT EVEN LIKE IT... i think sex should between 2 married people... and privet.. i think all the girls who do it look kinda gross.. yet.. i still look... and i still live with my parents so i cant go and get any kind of book to help me (like what anyway) i cant go to counseling.. and i think i would crawl under a rock and die if anyone i knew found out... im already a pretty quiet person... not alot of freinds .. never a date.. much less girlfriend... .. i dont even like talking about relationships with people... me=akward when it comes to ANYTHING boy/girl..well.. i can have a convo..but thats it...anyway... i try to read my bible more and it helps.. but whenever the urge hits then thats the last thing i want to do... and its not like popups are the problem I GO LOOKING FOR IT... dont tell me its "normal" dont tell me its ok.... give me advice on how to stop... and if you havent had this problem dont say "just stop" .. its not that easy
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