How do i get out of depression?
Anyway thats why lately I just think about the future and can't live in the now cause it just angers me too much. I just think about college, and working to get a successful job so I can actually enjoy life. And last year one of the friends that i can actually connect with, all he would talk about and still does is the future and what not, and then i would say how about you live in the now, but now i understand why, cause he's just as screwed up as me.
Some other things, everything is a hassle to do, i don't really care about school (i manage to get high test grades), been eating a lot (not overweight though), can't get to sleep every couple of nights and i have to take sleeping pills to actually get to sleep, and I don't really have anything to look forward to except getting the hell out of high school and moving on in my life (going to college and meetin new people) but im not even half done. How do i get out of this slump and actually live in the now and enjoy it?
Some other quick facts:
I recently been into philosophy
I watch a lot of history channel
I despise organized religion and despise the anti-reason that some people posses, i can understand believing in a deity but the fact that people think they can't eat meat on fridays or eat dairy with meat or that they have to pray three times a day facing "holy ground" just angers me (I go back and forth between agnostic and atheist)
I like science (not school science though) and history
Dont try and put it nicely, I could care less, i like when people dont sugar coat and are straight up and honest. I respect your opinion, but honestly don't care about it cause its not me that has to mature, ive dont enough maturing, you need to mature. And i have a life, and im just getting pissed off with it.