Well now, you should have thought about that before behaving like a total sl*t then, shouldn't you? I can understand why he doesn't trust you, no cheater deserves a second chance, but it seems a little two-faced of him to take you back and forgive you, then behave like he doesn't trust you. Tell him that! You're not the only one at fault here, and he needs to know that. He thinks he is right and you are wrong, but he's not a total faultless good guy, so I would suggest talking about that with him. Hopefully you can both share your issues and work on it together, but, if bringing up his behaviour makes him mad, and it most likely will, I would suggest going to see a relationship counselor, or even a family counselor. I hope you realise I don't sympathise with either of you,you're both at fault here, but nobody's perfect, and we learn from our mistakes, so hopefully you will take this advice and be able to move on from all this.