Try shooting a .380 ACP, and then try shooting a 9mm Parabellum. You'll find that both of those are easy to shoot, and a 9mm Parabellum is much cheaper to feed than either a .380 ACP or a .32 ACP. You're obviously not experienced enough to use a .32 ACP effectively as a self defense gun. If you were, you'd know better... like Lime Green said. No idea who gave him a thumbs down, but he's right on the money, as usual. One more thing- .32 ACP ammo isn't nearly as easy to find as 9mm Parabellum, .40 S&W, or .45 ACP. You might also want to look at .45 ACP, since it has a nice, slow recoil that's typically pretty manageable in a medium-frame or larger handgun. It depends on your body size- if you can carry something the size of a Glock 19 with no problem, do so. If you're a relatively small guy, you're probably going to want something else. Oh, and one MORE thing- don't disregard revolvers. A .38 Special has mild recoil, and is quite effective for self defense.