I'll pay two times this money to study for a higher degree, "you can't get a better job" is incorrect.
EDIT**: I know what you mean but try to be positive EVEN IN YOUR THOUGHTS, don't just desire, you must match your desires and your habits( thinking and practical habits).
and even in the hardest situations you will manage to find the best way. TRY IT PLEASE, just for a week be carefull of how you think .
No offense but What really freaks me out is that in a lot of your questions, you're constantly talking about can'ts and won'ts and wouldn't ...
I say you should seek some help from inspirational books,because with every " I can't" comes a packet of energy that will lead you to the thing you don't want.