I'm 14, gay, should I look up porn?

For details on my life as a gay person go here http://au.answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=Aqi8tCOY3njrWD.06SvpMvrg5gt.;_ylv=3?qid=20100305190812AAOEyQY Now I have never, ever looked up porn, in my life. And this was because I grew up believing it was a sin. Now I decided I really want to do it, but I'm... show more For details on my life as a gay person go here http://au.answers.yahoo.com/question/ind...
Now I have never, ever looked up porn, in my life. And this was because I grew up believing it was a sin. Now I decided I really want to do it, but I'm not, not because its "wrong" but because I'm too scard of being caught, watching any sort of porn, let along gay porn. I fell an urge to do it, and I really want to do it. What should I do?
Should I look it up?
If so how to avoid getting caught
if not how to avoid the temptations of looking it up?

I've never done it before.
Update: if so, then supply me with a safe website. That isn't "too much" but enough to simulate sexual senses
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