I'm 14, gay, should I look up porn?
Now I have never, ever looked up porn, in my life. And this was because I grew up believing it was a sin. Now I decided I really want to do it, but I'm not, not because its "wrong" but because I'm too scard of being caught, watching any sort of porn, let along gay porn. I fell an urge to do it, and I really want to do it. What should I do?
Should I look it up?
If so how to avoid getting caught
if not how to avoid the temptations of looking it up?
I've never done it before.